My woozy blog

or what?

There is this project I have in mind and nothing, really nothing is, like I wish it would be.
An apartment --- no biggie, I have tons, but those are apartments, even in reality I don't wanna live in. Except I have too much money and can afford at least 2 people, who are cleaning it every day.
With that said: Every focking apartment, cabin, house, whatsoever one could live in, is ways too big! 
Or, if it has the perfect size, the bathroom is always without a window, even worse, I've seen some without a window in the kitchen as well.

Ok, you can say now: Then model one yourself
Right!
But I can't, my brain just don't wanna do the job to understand the HOW.

So I dug out a trailer, a nice one to live in, but it's a Poser product, it's old (in 3d fast changing times, made in 2010) and to change all materials, all textures, it's driving me crazy. But it get's worse *sigh* the mesh is somehow --- not as I wish it would be.
Is it worth the work?
For sure not!

So why the heck am I doing it?

Cause I'm stupid, insane and idiotic!

I don't know, what I've done, I don't know, how it happened, but the main page / landing page was broken. The picture gone, the html completely destroyed and the worst, I don't have a clue, where I've saved the backup file.
So I had to write it complete new, it looks different now, the links are now below the picture and for the moment, I don't even know, if I wanna change it to the old style.
Of course, I could write a style.css for it, but am ways too tired for it.

But I wrote some words about copyright and the strict rule against this damned AI.
Serious, I just don't like it, that people think, they are creating art with writing some words and let the AI do the job. It's not even work, cause AI don't work. 

But hey, finally the wannabe got, what they always were hoping for, the "make-art-button" without getting creative, without learning a thing. But calling themselves artist, that's such a bad joke!

No pun intended from my son
but I was laughing so hard, simple, because he didn't knew, that he made a joke.

My sons are shopping and I got a call, what kind of sugar I wanna have. And I said, the usual white sugar, cause I'm going to use it on the ice outside, instead of salt.
And so he said: Yes, that's what stands on the packet, caster sugar.

The best jokes are always those made by accident :D
 

Shopping around the Christmas time = pure nightmare!

Going through the store with my little basket, a bit of bread and cheese and other little daily things, those things that were empty yesterday.
People around me with their shopping carts filled to the brim.
And I'm wondering - again - like every year, that the heck is going to happen?

World under? A big starvation? Or any other horror scenario, that people need to shop as if this is the very last chance.

A couple, almost storming out from the store, she dressed up pretty elegant, all in black with some glittering rhinestone at the cuffs and coat hem. Even her hair in the same black as her outfit.
He, more casual, but definitiv fancy enough for a nice dinner with family or friends.
She's holding a cheap flower pot, wrapped in plastic, in her hand, the gift for the host.
This last minute, I don't know what to buy - gift.

And then there is the funny stuff
On our way from the store I had to take a picture, and was wondering, if they had a cam installed somewhere to see peoples reaction. But then again - nope, not really, cause there isn't even a sidewalk and walking there is pretty dangerous, but we don't have any other chance.

I can only guess, the fence must be some about 3 meters, so this guy is for sure about 5 meters
And yes, it's a complete plastic Santa, we were able to see it from the side of the fence

All these sales and where please can I print all the money I would need, if I wanna buy?

Instead of decent prices all year long, we get these stupid sales. 
End of winter, end of summer, Thanksgiving and Black Friday, any thinkable holiday sales and this or that sale in between. 
Prices are pushed high, so they can go down for 50% or more with the sales. And still there is a huge profit margin.

But things one really needs are seldom on sale or if, at times, one can't afford it anyway.
Or you buy and the very next day it's on sale for half the price.

This sucks so bad!

So please give us decent prices all the time, instead of playing around with the money.

Do you know this feeling, when searching for a person and there is no respons at all?

I'd sent a site mail to a vendor at renderosity, usual the respond is in 24 hours. But she hasn't even read it. So I took a look at her profil, last active in 2021.
Another one gone for ever?
I have the bad feeling, the answer is Yes.

How many more people will we lose? How many of them had taken the syringe, not knowing, what's waiting for them?
 

Why, for heavens sake, why?

I got banned at this side I don't wanna give the name now.

Account closed ... no reason given to me

that means, all my data, all my render, everything is still there and I don't have a possibility to delete a thing.
Wrote a message yesterday ... no answer
Wrote a next message today, more demanding and hope, they will answer.
If not, legal steps will follow.

Trolls are free to attack everyone there.
And don't let me start about the betray with NO AI

Maybe I know the reason, cause I asked a month ago for the possibility to delete my render.
Yes, you got it right, I had to ask, cause "deleting" at that page only means, the picture is moved to agallery, hidden to the public eye.
Serious? 
Because another user once ago asked for it, afraid, he could delete by accident.
So I loaded up placeholder and replaced some of my render.
Against the TOS? Maybe. A reason to ban me? For sure not!

Edit:
Just got informed, nothing what I myself have done.

But someone I gave a mail address, not thinking about, that he would misuse it.

Not a healing coffee of course and not a healing meeting but a meeting with coffee about healing :D

My son got an invitation to a healing meeting with coffee and asked me to come with.

We both didn't knew, what was waiting for us, but were suspicious, it could be kind of a tupper ware party but with cards and stuff.
Well, it wasn't exactly that, but trying to get members to the Norwegian healing and clairvoyant school (kind of).

It started with a singing bowl and that was really very nice, after that some explanation, what spirituality is and some about meditation and I had to hold myself back. Some of what that woman said was plain wrong.
All in all it was nice, but we decided, nothing for us.

I mean, a healing meeting, and on the table a lot of cookies, cake, coffee and tea and yes, some water.
So the most unhealthy things to eat on a healing meeting.

Sometimes I really only can wonder about the humans.

A lot of rain 2 weeks ago, we got a water damage in the basement, called the insurance and they said, they wanna send someone to take a look at it.
No one came.

Over the weekend so much rain, it was unbelievable and the floor in the one room in the basement is now destoryed, totally destroyed.
Called the insurance and I was told, that I don't have a house insurance but only one for the barn.

So my son called to make sure, that I understood it right and it got worse.
We don't have any insurance at all!

Since THREE years, without any notification.

That's a f*cking Déjà vu

We bought the place in 2013 and first thing was to inform the insurance company. Only problem was, there wasn't any!
Without any information the insurance was canceled and I never found out why.
Ok, no big deal, looked up for another, made an insurance for all, so I thought and it was good.
And the next BUT popped up, cause after the barn was completely renovated, I wanted to make sure, that I had the right insurance for it.
Far away from that, there was no insurance for the barn.
I called and was told, I can do it online. Nope, I couldn't, an insurance specialized for farms and stuff, but no possibility to put in a barn. Thankfully the guy on the phone was very helpful and I got a good deal, the barn was with in

And now?
Again no insurance. 

What have I done to deserve all this crap?
We've paid for over 10 years for absolutely nothing at all!

For what have I survived this damned heart attack?
For what?
Everything is just so f*cked up.

Edit:

This all just don't make any sense at all!
After more calls I can be happy, that I don't have the insurance anymore. I mean, how insane sound that?
Fact is, for the first water damage, they thought, that the damage was in the barn.
And, even though I had an insurance for all together, now we are told not to worry, the farm and the barn itself are still insured, just not the house.
The water damage would had cost us more because of the deductible, so in the end we saved money.
Can someone find any sense in this insanity?