My woozy blog

Since some days I have a prickling sensation in my right hand and arm and just some minutes ago it started in my right foot as well.

Now I have two possibilities:

Freak out

or

Ignore it

Not sure, what to do.
For freaking out it's a bit too late I think, should have done it at the very first day.
Ignoring is impossible, when this prickling won't stop at all.

Going to a doc? For what? Maybe my new house doc is better than the first one, but hey, I'm in Norway and I highly doubt, that this one here will be better.
So why even bother.
I already decided, if something happenes, I hope it goes fast, from one second to the other, without the possibility to think or know, what's happening. 
Don't get me wrong, I wanna live, but at the same time I'm tired, so tired.
I know, it's a sign for depression, I know, I could and should ask for help, but there it is, the cat biting its own tail, I'm too tired for it.

Is there any humanity left?
Is there honesty left?
Is there anything left at all?

I have my doubts, big times.
 

Someone would do, but don't do, because in the past ... 
Damn, the thought alone is mean and to say it out loud, to mention it at all ...

I'm done, I'm soooo done!
 

Sorry for anyone in the future asking me for any kind of help.
Hundreds of thousands I helped and I don't mean people!

Twice, for 2 different people.
Some people really don't have any modesty!

What am I? Some kind of dummy, to use, when it's necessary and to forget otherwise?
Thanks, I got it, I understood.

Or, to say it with a Danish saying: Mange tak for ingenting

Cleaning the chicken coop is one thing, but to empty it complete isn't something the hens really like.

While the other 4 were walking around, my black girl had to inspect the wheelbarrow.
And all rushed in after everything was done and filled with fresh straw and sawdust. Scratching until every piece were, where they wanted to have it.
My chicken are funny :D

It's official, it's Spring :D

But does Spring know, that it's Spring in Norway as well?
Freezing temperatures last night, today such an icy wind, that it's no fun to go out.
And of course, spraying the sky, like they did yesterday, doesn't help either.

I just wish, I had all I need to secure the balcony, so Felix and Silky could enter it, without the possibility to go onto the roof, not knowing, how to come down again.
And do I wanna put money into it? For sure not, I wanna sell this place and move, not add anything more to it here.

Yesterday a storm came up and took down some metal parts from the roof. Bad, but shit happens.

Today we barely can breath in the house, the basement is flooded again. Worse than last time.

I have enough, really enough. And it's Friday 13.  usual my lucky day.
Where is my luck now?

A man from the insurance came and is working now.
He only made a little "mistake" in the beginning, he opened the door you can see in the second picture and then he jumped, cause the water came out in a flush and he was wearing sneakers.

Too early to say it out loud, but maybe I can whisper it?

*whipser modus on*  Spring is on its way to Norway *whisper modus off*

Slowly, piece by piece, the ice is melting and so does the snow. The snow faster than the ice, and it's good this way, cause I can break big pieces of ice and throw it away, so the water won't flood the farm. And honestly, I give nothing about my neighbors field, he don't care so I won't care.
I told him more than once, that he should dig a ditch, so the water can run down to the river, but nope, instead "the lake" is getting bigger every year. His lost harvest, not mine.

And beside that, I'm already looking for places to move. I'm done here, you can't imagine how much!

Btw. did I mentioned the Spring?
Don't say it out loud, it's very shy here in Norway.

It's still cold outside, it's still more than enough snow outside, but staying inside is almost impossible for me.
As if the air in the house isn't enough, the windows can be open, the balcony door too, but still, the air in the house isn't enough.

This is the sign, that the winter has been too long already, even though it was shorter than any we had here.

I wanna have Spring, green all over and being outside all day long!

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Just a little note
It took me one month to fit into my Jeans again.

I really should remind myself about the positive things more often!

or what?

There is this project I have in mind and nothing, really nothing is, like I wish it would be.
An apartment --- no biggie, I have tons, but those are apartments, even in reality I don't wanna live in. Except I have too much money and can afford at least 2 people, who are cleaning it every day.
With that said: Every focking apartment, cabin, house, whatsoever one could live in, is ways too big! 
Or, if it has the perfect size, the bathroom is always without a window, even worse, I've seen some without a window in the kitchen as well.

Ok, you can say now: Then model one yourself
Right!
But I can't, my brain just don't wanna do the job to understand the HOW.

So I dug out a trailer, a nice one to live in, but it's a Poser product, it's old (in 3d fast changing times, made in 2010) and to change all materials, all textures, it's driving me crazy. But it get's worse *sigh* the mesh is somehow --- not as I wish it would be.
Is it worth the work?
For sure not!

So why the heck am I doing it?

Cause I'm stupid, insane and idiotic!

And then I think, that I have enough of these pills, it would be so easy.

So why am I waiting?

Why?

Opened the page and saw a new link with the title "Best of me" linking to "The deer"

Now, if anyone could tell me, where this comes from? Because I haven't done it!
Or is it some kind of a hidden script, I don't know about?

3 days now since I was at the dentist, still not able to eat like I used to. 
Gonna see at the positive effect, my stomach is shrinking :D

Installed Gimp, I really would like to get rid of PS, this space eating program. And I found a tool, to get PS filters into Gimp, it's PSPI and it clearly states, I will be able to use "Flood" from Flaming Pear, with some restrictions, but it should work.
It didn't even show up

And I don't know anyone, who really could help me.