12/09/2026

Cleaning up is (not) hard to do

Sorting out, cleaning up, bringing out ect.

It felt good before Denmark and it feels even better now.
Now I only need to write some ads for finn, that I'm selling stuff and giving many books away and the huge living room will be soon empty.

Just how I wish, someone would buy the huge fish tanks, that would help a lot. And I'm talking about almost 900 liter for the biggest one. The next is "only" about 500 liter and the smallest 100 liter.
Well, I'll give it a try, maybe there are people out there looking for a fishtank for a nice price.

Where is the use for?

This blog comes with some nice plug-ins like the Spam-blocker.
Only problem, it don't work.

Every day I have to delete over 30 spam comments, cause even the "automatically deleted after 7 days" don't work.
And maybe there isn't any real working possibility, since this damned forking AI is getting stronger and better by the second.

About that dangerous AI crap, I think, we have passed the point of no return :(

How long will it take from here to the moment, no human wanna see happen?
Still people think, AI is just a tool, AI is something useful, AI is something they can control.
 

It makes me sad and it scares me, that people are already so blinded and won't see the truth :(

10/09/2026

Missing words

Again some days on the Danish island, again a fantastic Ayahuasca retreat.

Still missing words to describe, what happened, the help I recieved, the magical moments I had.
The dance, so much more than just dance and after the first night I had a huge blister under my foot and of course it didn't get better after the second night *laugh*
Dancing the night away, dancing the fear away, dancing the sorrows away and finding a peace I was missing for so long.

Ayahuasca, so much healing, so much love ♥

Oh how I wish, everyone would have this possibility.

First Hampaya, oh my, it was HOT, the Chili was burning and the following diet for 3 days was hard (more about it in the next days)

Second Sananga, the drops in the eyes, another burn, but for a very short time only, luckily

Third Rapé, another weird experience

and after all these Ayahuasca and even though I only took a sip, I went in fast and deep.
First the chants and the medicine was gentle, I thought I came out pretty fast, but went into the medicine a second time and oh my God, what followed next was a rollercoaster and I asked again for being treated more gentle.
Well, it was Ayas "gentle" way to guide me through my deepest fear, luckily Tjorven was with and beside me, reassuring that I'm not dying.

So much more to tell and so much more, I'll keep for myself.
From fear to total joy in the dance, it was amazing!

02/09/2026

Gruglede

All is packed and tomorrow I will go for my trip to Denmark.

This time the Huni Kuin will hold the zeremonie and I'm so excited. And nervous, and scared, and looking forward to.
In one word, that only in Norway exist.

Jeg gruglede meg  (Jeg = I  -and - meg = me)

To translate it at best would be: to look forward to something with a mix of dread and excited anticipation. 

 

 

30/08/2026

Shooting on a Sunday

Thanks to an idiot, who thought, he has to go hunting before a human time, I had a very short night.
Lütten was acting up, it was just a bit after 5 am, without her, I for sure wouldn't had heard a thing.

And I wonder, what this idiot was going after, cause he was shooting very often.
It's allowed to hunt goose and other birds and if you're fast enough you get maybe 2 birds and the flock is gone.

So what the heck was this guy after?
Maybe an illegal hunter?

For sure is, who ever it was, he is an a**hole!
 

29/08/2026

Stop Spam

Ok, now I found a plug-in for the plug-in to stop all these stupid Spam comments.
I wonder, if this really will stop the bots to post and save me a lot of work every day.

If these bots could and would read, I would make a special post for them, telling them, how useless it is to post, since I moderate the comment section.
And fact is, real humans, except very rare idiots, like 1 in a million, would post spam.

Well, I should see a result from this plu-in already by the end of the day. If I don't have any spam to delete, that would be amazing!

Not a panic attack

Yesterday I felt horrible, my eyes were hurting, I felt dizzy and in my head a thought started to grow.
When I went to bed, I was sure, that I wouldn't wake up today.

The good thing, I had no panic attack, just the wish, to stay alive, but no panic.
Isn't it amazing, how much Ayahuasca has helped me :)

Before Ayahuasca, this would had pushed me over the border and I would had taken Valium. 
And I was able to fall asleep, normaly the thought of maybe dying kept me awake for hours.

Feeling better today, still extreme tinnitus, a bit head ache and my stomach aches as well.

Just right now I wish, I would be back to normal and stop freezing, another part of the not-feeling-well

27/08/2026

Cleaning

Today I decided to clean up my external harddrive and oh my, so much still to delete --- and with that finding stuff I was afraid, it was lost.
Disk drill did a good job, the only problem, every photo, every video, doesn't matter what kind of file, all are named file abc or file  123, I think you get the picture.
Videos, not only twice, but up to 4 times the same, no difference to photos.

Good thing is, I don't need to do that in a day and have all time in the world. And I have used many, many days, but with long breaks in between, weeks, sometimes months.
And I'm coming closer to the day, I'm done with it :)

Feels good to delete all the files, and even newer files, like photos taken in the last months. Taking a closer look and deleting all, that are not the way I wanted to have them.

Do you remeber the days, when we had normal cameras with a technicolor, to bring to the developer and then pick up the photos a week later?
One thought twice before pressing the button. 
And it was good that way!

Well, the digital world has its adavatages for sure. But to clean up the masses, oh my!

26/08/2026

Harvest

Too early, not even September and the wheat is ripe and the farmers are working with their huge harvesting machines. Imagine all the dust, if they come close to my house I need to go in, can't breath in the dust.
And again, since my neighbor leased his field to the one, that already has more than enough, he owes almost all land around here, he is going so close to the border of my property, that he even takes down all weeds.
Meaning, almost nothing left for me to pick up, as I did all the years before.
Luckily there were small areas, impossible for him to reach without destroying my ground and I got a pretty nice amount of wheat sheaf. 

Cleaned the most of it, just cutting away the dry roots with too much clay on it, bundled some and have now 4 sheaf, maybe will get 2 more from the rest, I can hang out in the winter for the birds.
And if I'm really lucky, I can harvest some more tomorrow, before the rain beginn.

Photo will follow :)

24/08/2026

Neighbor

Only 1 km from my place is a house, my neighbor --- yes, this distance still count as neighborhood in Norway --- is living there.
Today we met for the first time ever, cause I left a note at his house, that I have to give away tons of books.

We had such a nice talk and so much in common. And we both were surprised, that we never met before. He is living here since 20 years, for me it's 13 years.
The world is so small and yet with distances so huge, that you won't meet your neighbor just 1000 meters away from you :D

He took with a box with books and one box with apples, a win-win situation for both of us :)

Ayahuasca

The clock is ticking, only 9 days left to my second Ayahuasca retreat and I'm already so excited.

My life has changed big times since the first time in June this year.
Yesterday I was out in the garden, cleaning up between the blackberries and raspberries. From time to time I had to remind myself about my thoughts, that came up, unwanted.
But for the first time since my heart attack no stress, no panic and i was able to work for a long time :)

To live without PTSD (well, almost) is a gift, no one can imagine, who don't know these attacks. 
I'm so much more active again, so filled with life again and I'm so grateful for that.

Ayahuasca and some wonderful people being with me all the time gave me my life back.

And now I can go for a second retreat and I'm sure, it will help me again to become free from other trauma and other dead albatross around my neck.

23/08/2026

The gallery

Thanks to a friend I installed a plugin today for my gallery.
He mentioned the video possibility and reminded me that way about the plug in I saw some days ago.
Well, the first one didn't work, just a bunch of error messages. The second one works just wonderful, only that I have to create thumbnails for any video, the function to get it automatically don't work. No biggie, I can live with that :)

And since I already had two pages in the gallery, I merged some albums, so all is now on one single page :)

My gallery

For sure I will remove one album more, maybe 2 and sort out some pictures, but for now I like it a lot more :)

And if I could find some real good smilies for my blog, that would be amazing!

22/08/2026

Shopping

Sometimes it makes me wonder, if some CEO have some brain cells left or none at all.

Renderosity i.e. it was a thriving marked place, with a thriving forum and gallery.
I have my little store there, nothing important to link to from here.

I made a new product and was going to load it up into my store. 
A little vignette, a picture will follow

But then I saw that I have to take at least 9 dollar and I was "NOPE won't do that!"
9 dollar for something I thought to sell for 5 dollar or even less.

And I understood, why everything has become so freaking expensive at that store.
The price lines and rules are insane.
Allegedly, because some of the top vendors complained about people, selling for little money.
Well, I would say, they shoot themselves in the feet.

Yesterday I scrolled thropugh the stores, 50 pages and I stopped, cause I found NOTHING!

Nothing but crap, skimpy wear, children lookalike Lolitas (when became that a normal thing at renderosity?) and nothing useful at all.
And the amout of AI generated crap, do people really think, I would buy this crap? 
I mean PAY for AI? Seriously?
Only one vendor stood out, his stuff is amazing, but even on sale, sorry, but I just can't afford things that cost almost 30 dollar ON SALE!

So Renderosity is going down faster and faster.
A gallery that don't even deserve the title gallery.
A forum, where you can't find a thing, cause all gets deleted (or pushed into archive) faster than one can count to 3. That's a killer and man, this forum was busy long time ago.
A marked place with garbage, AI-shit and totally overprized.

I will edit this post later or make an extra post about the opposite of this insanity we can find at daz3d. Insane as well, but the opposite to renderosity about prices. 

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I decided to edit instead making a new post

I don't wanna start with, what I think about the company itself, neither back the days without greedy Tafi nor now with Tafi.
Incompetent and stupid many years ago, and now I don't know, since I deny to use the forum with this snarky Richard, deleting all and everything that goes even in the slightest against daz3d.
You can praise daz over the moon, but never ever even try to talk about the not so good things.
Your post will be deleted and in the worst case, you will get blocked.

daz3d was always an expensive marked and rumors had it, that only the best of the best vendors had a chance there.
The truth is far away from that, one only need to be willing to sell his soul to daz.
Dumping prices, low as 99 cent for products, daz bought all rights for and the vendor is fooled for the rest of his time.
Still people going there, leaving rosity in hope to earn more money.
And I've seen many going back to rosity. Of course, selling stuff for almost nothing won't pay the rent.

Ok, enough with all this negative and stupid stuff.

And there is a third store, the worst of all.
I won't name it, I won't write too much about it, cause I'm done with it.
What that CEO made was extreme and it was extreme stupid.
Well, on the long run nothing will happen.
People were yelling, angry and very pissed about deleting a whole section without any given notice before.
But as usual, they threatened to leave and maybe a hand full did, the rest found an excuse right away. They wanna stay because of the community.
A community, eager for bad gossip and happy being fooled over and over and over again.

Well, I'm feeling sorry for most of them. 
Not being able to be for themselves, depending on this so called "social" media, cause the forgot, that there is a rea life out there.

 

 

 

 

It was necessary

A step, long overdue, but yesterday I made it :)

First a render, then the post and now I'm complete out of this insane "social media" game.
I'm talking about art and the different sides with galleries, where people can post their art.

One of those pages, renderosity, a 3d marked with forum(s) and gallerie(s) is one of them and I bid my adieu. And it was in time, so urgent in time.
I could feel the grumble in my stomach growing, never a good sign and acted corresponding.

This stupid competition of the people, for being on the first place in any kind of chart. Posting snap shots from all and everything, calling it art and photography.
No, it's not, it's just flooding a gallery with snap shots without any thought about light, point of view, colors or whatsoever.
Next problem is, that people, who have the Prime Membership can post ways more picture than other people and for every posted picture they get points. These points can be exchanged into money they can use in the store to buy new stuff.
Well, if they would save the money for the Prime they could buy more, a math no one seems to make.

I understand it, if someone has only little money, to get the possibility to buy a little bit from time to time. But still, these people still could at least try to make art, posting in an ART ! gallery.

Or the other category for 3d, oh for heavens sake.
One woman in different poses in skimpy wear with different backgrounds. Well, one can't discuss taste, luckliy to each of ones own. But flooding a gallery with this? 

And then there are people, posting since 20 years and more and I wonder, if they ever even tried to learn or just don't see it, or simply don't want to learn.
But those are fine, they post from time to time, still in hope to get any comment at all. Sadly they only get the crap "That's nice" which is no help at all to grow.
From time to time I tried and mentioned the mistakes and how to make it better, always kind, always friendly, never that they would feel offended. Never got a response, so I stopped, cause it showed me, they just didn't want to learn.
Cause others wrote "That's nice" and that was all, that counts.

You know, "it's nice" is the little kind sister of "it's crap".

I have the advantage of having my own side, my own forum, my own gallery. 
If I keep the forum, not so sure about, just two active members and one sent me a mail yesterday, that he need to take a step back. The other one posting from time to time, once in a week  and even less.
I think, I could end that as well and maybe make a new one, connected with my gallery.

https://3dgalleria.it/render/_data/i/upload/2026/08/22/20260822101237-db994943-me.jpg

 

 

19/08/2026

LAMH

LAMH is a player for daz studio and hair, that shall look normal, special for dogs and cats or other animals with long fur.
But in fact it's a disaster.
Minimum requirements on windows: 
1.5 G RAM (recommended 4G or more)
Stuido 4.5.1.6 or higher
Open GL 2.0 graphic card

Now, my PC has 16 GB RAM
12 GB NVIDIA GeForce RTX 3060

and guess what. Studio crashed again and again and again with 2 of these stupid hairs for 2 little dogs.
This is annoying and to get one render done I had to do 3 and with post work in Photoshop compose these 3 render to 1.

Only good thing is, that I haven't paid a lot of money for that crap, cause if, I would have asked for my money back. But I won't stress about 5 bucks.

 

 

 

13/08/2026

Wallpapers and painting

Working downstairs with the huge living room. One wallpaper missing and on wall needs painting. Almost done and then I can start taking all from the room above into it.
With that done, 3 more rooms that can be renovated, closed and are ready :) Just one room upstairs left and that's only to clean :) 2 bathrooms and the kitchen and the complete floor upstairs will be fine.

The next part of the living room will be colored wallpapers, will save a lot of money and work. 
The last part, which is a room for itself, since we put a wall in, only needs a fix for the floor, the wood don't look good anymore.
Repair the broken glass from the fireplace and it will be ready too :)

Only the kitchen downstairs, so much work to do :(

13. August and I wonder, if I shall send some birthday wishes
67 years my dear, getting older :D


 

05/08/2026

I love a rainy day

We were painting the last wall of the house and it started to rain.
Well, no point in painting, so we took down the scaffold, cause the company was coming today to pick it up again. At least that was the deal, the trailer is still standing in front of the house.
 
Today started with rain, it's still raining and I'm using the time to work online.
And I maybe found a new character for G8 female to work with. While searching I found a white peacock and the fowl and am very tempted to buy. The bird is on sale, that makes it even harder to resist.
 
I'm still blown away, just thinking about this amazing weekend with all the poeple we had here.
Another dugnad for the inside of the house and we would be almost done.
But other important things first, this time a lot of bureaucratic stuff.
 

I love a rainy night

 
I love a rainy night
 
Well, I love a rainy night I love a rainy night I love to hear the thunder Watch the lightnin' when it lights up the skies You know it makes me feel good
Well, I love a rainy night It's such a beautiful sight I love to feel the rain on my face Taste the rain on my lips In the moonlight shadows
Showers wash all of my cares away I wake up to a sunny day
'Cause I love a rainy night Yeah, I love a rainy night Well, I love a rainy night Well, I love a rainy night Ooh, ooh
I love a rainy night I love a rainy night I love to hear the thunder Watch the lightnin' when it lights up the skies You know it makes me feel good
Well, I love a rainy night It's such a beautiful sight I love to feel the rain on my face Taste the rain on my lips In the moonlight shadows
Puts a song in this heart of mine Puts a smile on my face every time
'Cause I love a rainy night Yeah, I love a rainy night Ooh, I love a rainy night Yeah, I love a rainy night Ooh, ooh
Showers wash all of my cares away I wake up to a sunny day
'Cause I love a rainy night Yeah, I love a rainy night Well, I love a rainy night I love a rainy night
Well, I love a rainy night You can see it in my eyes Yeah, I love a rainy night Well, it makes me high Ooh, I love a rainy night You know I do Yeah, yeah, I love a rainy night
I love a rainy night You can see it in my eyes I love a rainy night Makes me high Well, I love a rainy night And I love you too Yeah, I love a rainy night
Well, I love a rainy night Well, I love a rainy night I love a rainy night

03/08/2026

Amazing!

That was the most amazing weekend and experience EVER!

So many people and everyone was helping.
Except one side of the house, all is painted.
The old pillars in front of the door are gone and new ones are in place.
The sewer tank got some pipes --- and I was shocked to find out, that there never were any pipes at all.
The broken stairs down to the river GONE!
The little barbecue hut got a new painting too.

So much in just 2 days.

And honestly, I have really amazing neighbors. 
It was loud, the first party ended at 4 o'clock in the morning, the second one was until 6 o'clock in the morning and not one complain.

The people had so much fun, different kinds of music, so people were dancing in the garden and dancing the barn.
The relaxing room in the barn, so beautiful decorated by Silje and everyone who went in the took off the shoes. So much love and respect ♥

We had Poi performances, we had fire performances, it was magical, really magical.
People came we didn't even knew and when all was done and the party was over, everyone cleaned up.

It was a weekend of sharing, giving and taking and all filled with so much fun, laughter and love.

I'm thankful, more than any words could ever tell.
Thank you ♥ to each and everyone.
It was great, it was amazing, it was fantastic, I don't have enough word to say, how fabulous it was ♥

 

Fire flow :)

https://rumble.com/v7dpd8u-fire-dance.html?mref=2y4qkt&mrefc=4

 

 

 

31/07/2026

Teamwork day

Today and tomorrow, many people will show up and help painting the house and do a lot of other work.

The scaffold is almost done around the house, the chicken are locked in, so another one can dig up the ground from the sewer tank to the field, so new tubes can be set in.
I'm just glad, that we told our neighbors about the noise, cause the music is already roaring.

It will be exciting to see, how all will turn out.

And the princess without her mask is walking around, looking good.

29/07/2026

Victory

It took almost a year and my account at a specific side was opened again and I'm able to download all I've ever purchased there.

I'm saving all my render and deleting each and every single one (that will take time, over 100 render).
I sent a mail to the CEO, just being friendly and said thanks for the opening of my account.

And just right now I got a mail from him, welcoming me back at the side O_O

*err* what? No excuse, nothing at all, but welcoming me back.
Never ever!
When I'm done with saving I will delete my account for good!

Welcome back *pffffttttt*

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Neko