My woozy blog

Today I deleted my mewe account and wrote a review about this filthy page on Trustpilot.

The amount of p*rn on that page is scary, and yes, I mean p*rn, not aesthetic nudes.
Second, the overwhelming amount of AI, so much AI crap on one page, unbelievable. And many AI users are calling themselves green and nature friendly. How much stupidity is necessary for so much crap?
Third, the interaction, that ins't any interaction at all.

I mean serious, smileys and thumbs up and other small pictures under a post, a photo or such. Aren't they able to write a bit?
People, wake up, this isn't social, this is the opposite, it's distancing on a very huge scale.

I was in a group, a photo group and the response was so disappointing. Smileys of course, very rare that someone took the time to write some words.
Sometimes I had the feeling I was the only one writing a comment to the photos of others.
I found out why --- they only wrote in the chat.
WTF? WHY? I don't need a group, when the only interaction takes place in the chat.

I can't tell about the f*ckerberg page, how it's going on there. Deleted my account there many, many years ago.
But I can say, how it's on vk.
At least it's a clean page, when it comes to nudity stuff (and if there's some, then its very good hidden away).
Sadly, when it comes to AI, many of the self-appointed awaken people are using AI.
Sorry folks, you don't understand shit, when you're using AI.

But interactions? Give me a break. I had "friends" never reacting to any of my posts, but spamming their walls with endless posts every day. Friend-collectors, out for many hearts/thumbs/any-smiley-at-all
This isn't social, this is antisocial!

The internet really is dead.
AI crap talking with AI crap, the worst example is yt. AI videos, AI voices, AI comments

Are there any humans out there?

I just found a link to the themarkup.org/blacklight  page and checked my page.

The forum - clean
The gallery - clean
The mainpage - clean

The blog, 5 trackers and cookies found 

And I started to search, the evil one was a video from youtube I put in here with "embed" 
Ok, no biggie, changed the url to youtube  -nocookies, checked again, still the cookies.
Google and youtube, both trying to get their fingers into my page.
Nope, I don't want this!

So I deleted the complete post and my page is really clean

Take a look if you want
 

Blacklight check

I love music and if I wanna listen to music, I'll do it.
And now here it is, the annoyance of the use of music, the background music.

There is an interesting video on youtube or any other video sharing sites. You start it and you get annoyed right away, cause the maker used some sound/music in the background.
Isn't it focking enough, that we have to listen to a cacophony of different songs from different shops, side by side in a shopping center?

It's all and every where, the constant background music. 
They say, it's to get the people in a better mood, so they stay longer and buy more.

Well, it won't work on me, I leave as fast as possible.
And if I wanna listen to some interesting theme and there is music in the background, I stop the video right away. 
I've started to give thumbs down for every AI crap video and if poeple don't stop using music for every single video, I will start giving thumbs down there as well.

What are these people afraid of? That no one would listen to them anymore, if they stop using music?
Don't you worry, I'm not the only one, who is annoyed by the extreme use of music.
I wanna hear the person talking, wanna listen, to what she or he has to say.
And so do many others.
 

So PLEASE stop using background music, if you wanna say something.

Such a lucky shot :D

I just came in after cleaning up all the old wood outside.
Sat down at my desk and saw a movement in the corner of my eye. My son was in the room as well and I asked him not to move a bit. Grabbed my mobile and got this 

Topsy is a 3d character for the Genesis 8 female generation.
For many years, back in the beginning with 3d, I used Poser and in Poser my favorite woman was Miki (any version)
And Aiko 3, I was able to use her in Poser as well as in daz studio.
Both femals were stand alone figures, meaning, there wasn't a need for a character.

Times and things have changed since then and I found a new character I like to work with. There are many beautiful characters for Gen 8 F, but Topsy it is.

Rendered in daz studio, no postwork

If I would know more German speaking people than English speaking people, I would write this blog in German.
The English language is, like many others as well --- don't let me start with the poor Norwegian language! --- missing on so many words.

Just the word I used for the title here:
Zettelwirtschaft
In English you need a sentence to say it: to have bits of paper everywhere 
In Norwegian: papirhaug or pairrot, and this in English again would be paper heap/pile/stack or chaos for rot

Well, if I would translate it back to German I would end up with:
Papierhaufen (paper heap/pile/stack) or Papier-Unordnung (papirrot) 
and none of them would give the real meaning, what Germans mean, when they say Zettelwirtschaft.
At least, the English sentence comes pretty close to it.
But hey, we have a single word, isn't it amazing?

Long story short

I finally got rid of my Zettewlwirtschaft, one big pile, all now written down in a notebook.
And yes, a real notebook, with real paper, written with a real fountain pen with real ink.

This is something so satisfying, I mean the writing, only people can understand, that have the same mindset.
Writing is beautiful.

I was trying to find the origin of the word Zettelwirtschaft
Sadly the only explanation to find is, that it's just a mess of small papers with notes on it, flying around everywhere.
But how about the Pub, common word now in Germany as well, but was called as well for "Wirtschaft"
And when a regular forgot his money or simply didn't had enough with, the innkeeper (Wirt) used a paper or the beer coaster to write down the amount of beer (or other drinks) and when the guest left, the innkeeper put the coaster beside the register to cash in another day.

Honestly, I just love my explanation for the word Zettelwirtschaft

or restoring faith in humanity, yt is filled with all these wonderful moments.

I don't know, why I watch them from time to time again, cause they make me cry, always leaving the wish, some of this kindness would happen to me.
Like a mail, saying sorry for letting me down for years. Or saying sorry for the extreme hurtful words said to me.

I know, it won't happen, I know it would be stupid to wait. I just don't believe in miracles anymore.
I'm not waiting for a thank you because of all the help I gave. I helped, cause I was able to and I did it with all my heart.

But being treated as if I don't matter at all, worse, as if I don't exist at all, it hurts.

So why they heck am I watching these videos, knowing I will cry like a baby. Because it's good to see, that there are still humans out there and in fact restoring my faith in humanity again.

Since some days I have a prickling sensation in my right hand and arm and just some minutes ago it started in my right foot as well.

Now I have two possibilities:

Freak out

or

Ignore it

Not sure, what to do.
For freaking out it's a bit too late I think, should have done it at the very first day.
Ignoring is impossible, when this prickling won't stop at all.

Going to a doc? For what? Maybe my new house doc is better than the first one, but hey, I'm in Norway and I highly doubt, that this one here will be better.
So why even bother.
I already decided, if something happenes, I hope it goes fast, from one second to the other, without the possibility to think or know, what's happening. 
Don't get me wrong, I wanna live, but at the same time I'm tired, so tired.
I know, it's a sign for depression, I know, I could and should ask for help, but there it is, the cat biting its own tail, I'm too tired for it.

Is there any humanity left?
Is there honesty left?
Is there anything left at all?

I have my doubts, big times.
 

Someone would do, but don't do, because in the past ... 
Damn, the thought alone is mean and to say it out loud, to mention it at all ...

I'm done, I'm soooo done!
 

Sorry for anyone in the future asking me for any kind of help.
Hundreds of thousands I helped and I don't mean people!

Twice, for 2 different people.
Some people really don't have any modesty!

What am I? Some kind of dummy, to use, when it's necessary and to forget otherwise?
Thanks, I got it, I understood.

Or, to say it with a Danish saying: Mange tak for ingenting